The Outsiders Chapter 8 Character Journal

Darry's Journal :

    I cannot not believe that Ponyboy is finally back! I was so scared that I lost him just like I lost Mom and Dad. I don't know how I could have lived with myself if he ended up like Johnny or worse. I feel so bad for Johnnyboy doing all that he did and all, I just hope he makes it out okay. Johnny makes being apart of the Greasers just a little bit easier, I mean he reminds me of all the emotions I try to bottle up inside. I just hate what this whole gang situation has done to him, I mean without any gangs Johnny would be a normal boy with parent troubles but now he is a murderer. Even if the Doctors can make him better I doubt that things will get better for hime being a cripple and all. I do feel bad for Pony though too, I bet he feels awful bad for what happened to Johnny all of us do. I just am glad that we are all back together again. Its a same that I have to work today, thats how I keep paying the bills right, I just wish that I didn't have to grow up so fast. Being the parents is tough especially the taking care of my brothers part. Working to support them is really draining, I have been trying to save up for college I would love to go but with the money I'm making and the fact that I need to support my brothers I will be a snior citizen before I can go to college. So instead of dreaming I find that its easier to work then to complain. At least I have  provided a roof over our heads and chocolate cake on the table so, I have done pretty good. I just wish I could have done something to prevent what happened to Johnny and Pony, then maybe we wouldn't be in such a tight position. With all of this exposure with the new crews and stuff there is a chance that Pony and Soda could be sent to a boys home! I can't let that happen I mean I won't let that happen. All that I have done to make our lives seem normal and to have all of their comfort taken away from them, I just could't bear the thought. If only Mom and Dad were here then none of this would happen, and all would be good in our house. I could go to college, Johnny wouldn't be in the hospital and Soda and Pony and me we would all be together, and sure of our futures. Now we have nothing but the each other to get through the tough times, and even that might be cut short. Anyways I better get to work I can't be late. 

Dally's Journal.

     I cannot believe that the doc thinks that writing a journal can help with the post traumitic mumbo jumbo stuff. Yeah sure saving little Johnny's life was quite the experiance but seriously a guy like me with a record like mine, and they want me to write a journal. This isn't the worst that is happened to me. I f I wrote in a journal everytime something like this has happened I would have 20 or more books filled! I don't really show it but I feel bad for Johnny, but I couldn't have just let him burn, at least I got a nice scar out of it. It goes nicelly with my rep, it will be a nice addition to the fight tonight. I will look even tougher. I am so pysched for the fight tonight, I got Two Bits pocket knife and I'm raring to go. I am going to kick some butt tonight. Too bad Johnny won't be there to see history go down in the making. Anyways I hate writing so this will be all.